Truth is I have been postponing to publish this blog that I have customized for a while now. I have always wanted to run a blog but didn’t think my life was interesting enough to share it out with everyone. However, I have made a pact with myself to stop pushing back ideas and desires of my heart that I have had in me for so long. I recognize it has been fear, among other things, that have held me back from executing my ideas instead of dreaming and dreaming and dreaming of that someday doing them. Before I begin, I’ll give you some insight into how I understood what I wanted in life.

Ever since my friends showed me NCT U’s ‘7th sense’ MV around October of 2016, my life changed and I didn’t realize how much until a few days ago. I was a hardcore ‘Directioner’ and after 1D went on an undefined hiatus and Zayn left 1D, I had nothing to do, at all. I would listen to music, but nothing would reach my expectations or would satisfy my taste. It was in my last year of high school when I was properly introduced to Kpop. I remember my friend Natasha, which doesn’t give up without a fight, begging me to listen to a new song that came out earlier that year. I knew it was Kpop related and she knew I didn’t like it (or that’s what I thought), but she insisted and I gave in with a condition. If I didn’t like the first minute into the song, I wouldn’t watch the rest. I ended up going through more videos, even though I couldn’t understand anything. I couldn’t even search for a K-pop video on YouTube. Even though my friends and my cousin listened to Kpop, I always rejected listen to it. Mostly because I couldn’t understand a word and I was highly unpleased with anything Asian-related. (No offense! Forgive my ignorance.)

I officially converted to Kpop around BTS’s first week of promotion for BS&T (a.k.a Jimin’s birthday). I had listened to BTS even before I knew who they were. However, I was introduced to EXO, Big Bang, Shinee, and other groups before BTS. For me, it was an immediate connection with the guys. I remember clicking random videos on youtube that I couldn’t understand and binge-watching their videos. It was a struggle. I didn’t know who was who… it was di- ffi- cult. Their own individual stories, their concepts, and their meaningful lyrics spoke to me. I found myself immersed in their stories and content. I tried to listen to other groups, but I would find myself going back to their albums. I am the kind of person that if I like a song, I will listen to it until I get tired of it, which only happens on rare occasions. The same thing happens with food, products, people, etc. Unlike my friends and most people, I never get tired of something easily. That helped me to understand more and more Korean until it wasn’t Kpop or Korean music my main focus.

I was in a transition phase in my life from High School to College. I had to make a decision. I knew I wanted to study something related to writing, so I chose to be an English major. Kpop affected my life positively in the sense of changing my perspective of what I wanted to accomplish with my bachelor’s degree. At first, I wanted to be an Editor, I still want the experience to work as an Editor. However, the viewpoint of my future changed. Now, I not only want to be an Editor but I also want to travel and work abroad. Instead of working from an office all day, I want to explore the world and work in something that I love. I have never considered working as a teacher or getting my BA in English Education. I’m not discarding the option either because it is an open door for me to find a job abroad. Ever since my first year of college, a passion for foreign languages and cultures surged in me. I had known through my life that was interested in English, but I didn’t know how passionate I was about languages and cultures until my freshman year of college. That’s what has inspired me up till now.

The purpose of this blog is to document my life from the begging of the process of achieving my most desired dreams. I want to remember where I was, where I am and where I’ll be. As I read in a quote a long time ago, I’m learning to allow the space where I want to be and where I am to inspire me and not to terrify me. I don’t want to keep dreaming about where I want to be and what I want to achieve. It is better said than done. But I’m ready for what God has in store for me. I want Him to lead the way in my life. I am working hard for my dreams and goals, and in His name, I will be able to achieve them.

Thank you,

Liz xx ^^